faith

went to an event at a church on friday night. was the first time i had been in a church for years. despite the minor discomfort (the cross symbol scares me) i had a really fun night. on my way home i started thinking about faith and why people believe what they do. is it a sense of comfort? liberation? freedom? fear? brainwashing? rules to live by? i was thinking about my own faith and not sure i really had one. i hope people are religious in order to feel alive. positive. able to do anything. peaceful. connected to self/family/world. to feel inspired. willing to create change.

went to dance class yesterday. i realized my faith is dance. give me a beat and i come alive. amen.

and then there is always george michael......."well i guess it would be nice/if i could touch your body/ i know not everybody has got a body like you.........cause you gotta have faith faith faith"

interesting article

check out this article: http://www.feminist.org/news/newsbyte/uswirestory.asp?id=10016 (i can't get links to work so cut and paste address)

here is a preview "Keroack spoke at the Abstinence Clearinghouse’s conference in June on the connection between brain hormones and the ability to form meaningful relationships, saying that promiscuous women will not be able to form long-lasting relationships because they have used up all of their "bonding" hormone on casual sex, according to AlterNet."

i wasn't sure if it was a joke or not. very scary that someone who holds these views/beliefs hold such a place of power. usa. what can i say?

global haze proposal

i admit that i haven't spent as much time following climate change theories/proposals/issues as i should be. i'm not ignorant on the topic but i know i have a lot to learn about the topic too. i'm currently reading al gore's 'an inconvenient truth' which has a good basic overview of the current issues in very easy scientific jargon. (however it cracks me up that the book is MASSIVE....good waste of paper and over production....anyways). with the current climate change meetings in nairobi i've been learning more but also first hand experiencing climate change - it has been over 15 degrees everyday this month and tuesday was 20 degrees!!!
i was very disturbed to learn about the global haze proposal. basically if the earth's atmosphere warms too much, pollution would be deliberately put into the atmosphere to help reduce the warming. i think scientists believe this would be work becasue the sun's rays wouldn't be able to penetrate the atmosphere as much. anyone know if this is the correct logic?????? this scares me. in fact the proposal is meant to scare us. but scientists are actually thinking along these lines. have we reached the point of no return? i really hope once people from my generation start getting into high level policy making positions we can start thinking about the earth and her future.

dang!

well day one of the new 'peaceful' me was a bust. my thinking was that if i can be a less negative or hostile person then i'm doing my share of local and immediate good-vibe stuff. headed off to work and was grumpy with a few customers, even called one a bitch under my breath! yikes. this will take time but i really want to send out good energy. i believe if more positive energy was floating around in the atmosphere we'd all feel better. we all have our chance to contribute. deep breath..........less negative more positive.....less negative more positive......

peace

with the recent passing of remembrance day, i've spent more time than usual thinking about war, fighting, soldiers, peace keepers, medical personel and so forth. as i've discussed before on this blog, my grandmother came to canada from wales as a war bride after meeting my grandfather, a soldier, after WWII. last week hundreds of war brides from across canada took the train back to halifax to visit the pier where they entered. i spent time with my grandfather looking at photos and items he had kept from the war - love letters to my grandmother, 'leave' passes from duty for an afternoon, pay stubs etc. usually i don't stop and take time to remember those have fought in war and those who are fighting today. so this year on november 11th i did and i'm glad for it.

of course i oppose war, fighting and violence. but what do i do to promote peace? what can i do to help create a peaceful world? peaceful city? home? work environment? i've decided to make a commitment to myself to be a more peaceful person. i really believe it is going to be difficult but it is one challenge i'm up for.

taste of freedom

haven't discussed this before on my blog yet because i;m not exactly sure how i feel about blogging with regards to other people...however i'm going to talk about it anyway. in august a good friend was arrested and placed in jail in japan. she is guilty for her charges and has remained in jail since. it has been hard getting information about her case and how she is doing. her boyfriend has given me some updates. 2 of my letters have been returned unopened and i've feared she hasn't known my support for her. she is one of the most amazing people i've ever met. she sparkles. her being fills every room she enters. i have loved the times we have hung out.

i was so happy to have received a letter from her today. even though i know what a positive person she is, i was expecting a sad and depressing letter. not so!! she discussed the horrible conditions she is living in - a tatami room with 7 other women. one woman had just given birth and has to pump her breast milk daily - with no privacy. my friend *s* said the woman is so upset being apart from her baby so s massages her and tries to make her laugh. even though its below 0 during the evening, there is no heat. they are not allowed to wash their clothing. they do not get warm food. from 7am to 7pm they are required to remain sitting in the same position. s should be deported later this month. she said she can't wait to hug a tree, touch a leaf and shave her pits! oh the things we take for granted. i was feeling so bummed out today. again i'm humbled about how much i have.

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as if no one has entered my oh-so-wonderful contest!! people people people. could it be possible that no one actually reads my blog? no of course not! silly me :)

anyways the first submission is from ME! i was feeling like shit on saturday - grrrr pms. so i treated myself to a wonderful afternoon/evening that seemed to do the trick. it started with a hair cut ('urban chic' - short and very blond in the front). had a smoke while walking around downtown eating chocolate to fill the munchies. finished the day off with a concert called drumfest. it was amazing. drumming from all of the world - african, japanese, native, rock, celtic - i loved it. belly dancers, breakers, highland, african. yipppeee.
i feel a lot more like giving high fives than giving punches.

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i get wicked bad pms. i'm tired tired tired of it. yesterday i would have shot a few customers had i not had a shot gun with me. i would have punched the bus driver for being a few minutes late but the fear of rebreaking my elbow held me back (and not wanting to hurt another person). i'm sick and tired of being irritable, bitchy, mean and moody. how can you help???????

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