is this you? it's kinda me

a friend emailed me this. thought it was pretty interesting

For those of us in our twenty-somethings, this puts it all into> >>words perfectly. They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when> >>you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there> >>are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know....and may> >>not like. You start feeling a little insecure and wonder where you> >>will be in a year or two, but then you get scared, because you> >>barely know where you are NOW. You start realizing that people> >>really are selfish and Maybe those friends that you thought you> >>were so close to, aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever> >>met, but the people you lost touch with are some of the most> >>important ones. What you do not realize, is that they are realizing> >>that too. They are not really cold or catty, mean or insincere, but> >>are merely as confused as you and a little caught up. You look at> >>this job you have. It is not even close to what you thought you> >>would be doing... Or maybe you don't even have one. That's even> >>better.> >>> >>You miss the comforts of socializing with the same people on a> >>constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so> >>great after all. You are beginning to understand yourself and what> >>you want and do not want. Your opinions seem to have gotten> >>stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging> >>more than usual, because suddenly you realize that you have set> >>certain boundaries in your life, and are adding to the list of> >>things that you find acceptable or not. You feel insecure and then> >>so very secure. You seem to laugh and cry with the greatest or> >>forces. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is> >>the enemy, you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but> >>soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and> >>there is nothing to do but stay where you are.... or move forward.> >>You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do> >>such damage to you or how YOU let them have that much control on> >>your heart. Or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone> >>decent enough spend time with to get to know better. You finally> >>love someone.... but you also love someone else too, You cannot> >>figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.> >>Really you aren't.... One night stands and random hook ups start to> >>look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot looks> >>pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and> >>over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you> >>cannot seem to make a decision on anything.> >>> >>You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life> >>for yourself, and while winning the race would be great, right now> >>you would just like to be a contender! What you may not realize is> >>that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of> >>times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure> >>this whole thing out.> >>> >>Send this to your twenty-something friends... maybe it will help> >>someone feel like they are not alone in their confusion !!>>>>Lindsay Watters

help this kid out

here is a copy of an email i was sent. how cool would it be if he got letters from around the world!!


Hi Everyone,

As some of you might have heard on the News or on the radio: "There is a seven year old boy named Shane who has been at CHEO in the oncology unit battling cancer for a year. Shane is trying to beat the current world record of the most greeting cards received while in the hospital before he turns eight years old. Kiss FM is trying to help Shane with his wish by asking everyone to send a card to Shane over the next few weeks. Shane’s birthday is May 30th so you could even send him early birthday greetings.


If you have a few minutes to spare, please send a card to Shane to help brighten his spirits and help him reach his goal.



You can also forward to your friends and they can sent their cards to:



Shane

c/o Kiss FM

2001 Thurston Drive

Ottawa, ON K1G 6C9

don't really have much to say. my days are very full at the moment. i am working three part time jobs, have dance and computer classes twice a week, essays for school coming out of my ass and a volunteer commitment. i'm glad. when i have free time i feel restless and am anxious to find something to occupy my mind. is that bad? is it a sign that you don't really want to be left to your own devices? am i avoiding something? people who seem to be able to chill, take life slowly, do usually seem more put together.....(hmm, do i really think that?) or they just don't give a shit so of course they seem 'ok'. what do you think? (esp you dawn because i know you are a rise-at-6am-keep-going-all-day-too-kinda-grrl too)

oh and driving! i have one more parking lot lesson and then i'm ready for the streets! yippee

hard core

do i talk about my accident too much? well it's my blog so too bad! just got my computer updated so i can download photos from my camera finally!
this is how i flew home. crazy eh.

got another part time job at the ymca. really really excited about it.

peacock

i had a really cool compliment last night. i was dancing with my friend angela and she said i reminded her of a peacock (do you remember Ang?)

besides their STUNNING beauty, here are some facts peacocks (or peahens for the women):

Peacocks (Pavo cristatus) are members of the pheasant family. The word peacock actually refers to the male bird, while females are peahens, and the young are peachicks.

A group of these together is referred to as a bevy.

These grand birds like peace and harmony

Reaching heights of over three feet, an adult peacock’s ‘train’ of tail feathers can be sixty inches in length.

the image of the peacock is considered striking

Peacocks will also eat just about anything they can get their beaks into, so be sure that garbage and debris such as paper is not left in their reach.

this and that

ran 16km today! 1:34!! this is the longest i've ever ran! yippee. i'm also a clinic instructor for a group of 25 adults in a 'learn to run' program. should be fun. call me 'coach kt'

saw the surgeon last week. need to go for another operation sometime this year. wow, that narrows it down!

got new glasses. expect photos soon.

i see.....

had my eyes checked yesterday. besides the fact that i'm about 3 years over-do, my eyes have been bothering me lately so i knew it was time for a new prescription. well i do in fact need to change my lenses....because my vision has IMPROVED!!!! isn't that crazy? my eyes are hurting because my lenses are too strong!!! i was jumping for joy. i'm going from a -1.75 lense to -1.0!!! now i just need to find a new pair of frames.

"i can see clearly now my vision's back....."

kt behind the wheel

tomorrow is my SECOND driving lesson! it's so exciting sitting behind the wheel. so much pressure! i learned how to start, stop, check mirrows, blind spots and even hit top speeds of 13km per hour! my aunt has kindly agreed to give me some lesson - in her kick ass jeep.

during my run today, i ran 12km in little over an hour - guess i run as fast as i drive. nice.

personal development day

i'm so excited it's wednesday. i've decided to make wednesdays my personal development day! i told my boss i always need wednesdays off and luckily it was no problem. each wednesday from 12-1:30 i have dance class! i'm sooooooooo excited. i'm taking modern dance at a good dance school in town. today is my first class. i can't wait. during the evening i'm taking a computer course at a university in town. booooooooo. i CAN wait. however computer skills are essential in today's labour field so i'm biting the bullet. i had my student photo id made yesterday. how exciting! i was so happy to be back inside the huge library. later on i'll meet my friend tracy for our wednesday night ritual - $2.50 run shots and live raggae/dub. yippeeee.