don't really have much to say. my days are very full at the moment. i am working three part time jobs, have dance and computer classes twice a week, essays for school coming out of my ass and a volunteer commitment. i'm glad. when i have free time i feel restless and am anxious to find something to occupy my mind. is that bad? is it a sign that you don't really want to be left to your own devices? am i avoiding something? people who seem to be able to chill, take life slowly, do usually seem more put together.....(hmm, do i really think that?) or they just don't give a shit so of course they seem 'ok'. what do you think? (esp you dawn because i know you are a rise-at-6am-keep-going-all-day-too-kinda-grrl too)
oh and driving! i have one more parking lot lesson and then i'm ready for the streets! yippee
posted by i'm a fara girl ('fara' means JOYOUS in Shona) @ 8:55 PM
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Hey there lovely. Its hard to say….what works for some people doesn’t work for others. Ever since I’ve known you, you’ve been go-go-go. It may not be that you are afraid of being alone or left to your own devices, it maybe that you just don’t know how to relax? I feel that way sometimes. I never really feel at ease, not even when I’m getting ready for bed (I actually think laying in bed is one of my more anxious/restless moments). However, I am happy to be busy. I get a lot accomplished, see many friends, experience life to its fullest…… but yet, I do relish those moments my head isn’t in work or some sort of problem solving crisis. I think the first step is recognizing that maybe you do need to slow down (and try to dot his without the aid of depressants…) but don’t do it bc you feel you have to. Do it bc you want to. I find I slow down more now bc of a..gasp… dare I say it… a relationship. It seems to work that way for me. I find time to slow down if the people I’m with are working at a slower pace. Maybe the trick is to find some slow paced people to chill with? I miss you. Come to TO and work yourself into a multi-tasking frenzy with me!
I think balance is key. You can go go go all you want, but remember it's important to sit back and reflect on what you are doing sometimes. How else will you know if you are actually doing what you want to do? If it all feels right and you are content then it's probably all good. The only thing you should worry about is how you feel. If you feel stressed out then you need to figure out why. I don't think life is meant to be a struggle.
you guys both made good points. yes the world is made of different kinds of people... and yes, life shouldn't be a struggle. and it sort of is right now. i dropped that f*c*n computer course so that's good:)
we'll chat over 'order-in' on monday ang.
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Life shouldn't be a struggle. But don't slow down too much! You'll have plenty of time to do that when you're sat in a rocking chair at the retirement home dribbling all over yourself and trying to remember your own name.
I think it's brilliant that you're learning to drive by the way.
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