changing tides

i've been debating whether or not to write about this on my blog. i've made a major decision in my life and i'm sort of in a scary place and writing about it somehow makes it real or something.

i've spent as long as i can remember wanting to work in the not-for-profit industry. i've always volunteered, attended events promots social justice issues, have a BA in sociology/women's studies, am preparing for grad school to develop more skills and knowledge in the industry. however i've never looked forward to having a sit down job - an office job. but that's the way it works right. ?

a few weeks something clicked in my head. i don't want to work in this industry. i don't want to go to grad school. i'm not going.

i've decided to get into fitness and recreation management. i'm taking my first fitness certification through the ymca starting in 2 weeks. i've missed most deadlines for programs starting in the fall but am going to keep searching or apply for next winter entry.

i'm so excited. i can't believe it has taken me 29 years (and a million cigarettes) to find my niche.

i'm really nervous. the grad applications were still submitted. just in case......